In life
we have those moments where you have to make a choice. Sometimes one side may seem so far out of reach and the other is the easy way out. If I always chose the easy way out I wouldn’t be who I am. I wouldn’t have the things I have today and I wouldn’t have accomplished the things I’ve done if I chose to just walk away and not try. I’ve never took that route and I don’t plan on it anytime soon. But holding on to you really is taking a toll on me. Each day I’m always wondering, always thinking of giving up, but then again each day I’m always looking on the bright side. I was told if you really want something, if you really cared, don’t give up. That’s how I’ve lived my life so far and I’m not going to change it. No matter how hard it is for me, no matter how many people disapprove of it, I’m not going to give up. Being apart was honestly the hardest thing I’ve ever had to endure in my life but it’s made me a better person both mentally and spiritually. I’m not going to look at the negatives anymore. I’m so torn that this whole thing happened but then again I’m actually really glad it did. If this didn’t happen, I wouldn’t have met some of the most amazing people who are in my life now. I wouldn’t have these unforgettable memories that i can share one day if this didn’t happen. Which brings me to the question, should I move on or should I try harder? I finally know the answer now and I’m going to choose neither. What we had in the past was very special to me but thats gone now. As much I hate to say its over, I’m not going to give up on us. We are two completely different people now and I finally understand that. I’m always going to be here for you no matter what. All I want is for you to be in my life no matter what our relationship is. You are the most important person who has ever come across my life and I don’t want to lose that person. I don’t want you to just be a chapter in my life. I want you to be there till the very end. Wether it be as my significant other or just a friend, it doesn’t matter anymore. Thank you for being apart of my life. Thank you for giving me 2 of the best years that one could share with someone. I have never thanked you for giving me that and I’m really sorry….
I just wanna cuddle & fuck & cuddle & fuck.
(Source: whatdoyouhavetoprove, via sithasfuck)
